this is all the faith you need.
‘you didnt have enough faith,’ Jesus told them. ‘i assure you, even if you had faith as small as a mustard seed you could say to this mountain, ‘move from here to there,’ and it would move. notink would be impossible’
from jie to me.
– G
( rare entry )
perhaps someone could provide some answer (guy !)
– yes he did. it nice throwing qns at him & getting answer.
answers i been seekin for.
perhaps, writing simply make me feel better.
basic background.
man A attached with woman A.
man A cheat on woman A, with woman B.
woman A dump man A.
man A + woman B = an item.
my tots:
let me state this – its none of my biz.
i’m just puzzled & amazed by humans.
smts, i felt.. i could learn so much stuff but there’s simply no good reasons for the things we (humans) do..and it make me wondered ‘why play nice’ shit happens to nice pple.
life.. humans are complex.
questions:
how others look at her? how could woman B live with herself?
its beyond my understanding.
most impt, how could woman B feel secure with man A. havent woman B heard? things always come a full circle. i feel sorry for woman B. the starting of the r/s is aldy so wrong, how could you right things out.
guy’s input.
raise my qns to guy. he listened and gave me a damn good answer – desire.
woman B desire to be with man A goes beyond all moral issue. the desire are greater den how others look at her, how she look at herself.
guy – let me write out a summary & my tots okie?
summary / conclusion /tots.
guy mentioned abt integrity too. you can be emotional-weak (like me !) you can be tempted (like some man) but your integrity is what separate man from cockroaches or woman from witches.
he is right. its a matter of acceptance for me.
learn to accept there are pple like woman b & yeap, let go of the issue. i will be happy. i told guy, i will.. just a matter of time.
base on my own vaules / beliefs, i’ve condemned her action. yes, she might have her reasons, her background, her influences but some things to me.. its simply black & white. there’s no grey area to speak of. its wrong, its wrong. i believe in second chances (i can hear guy goes ‘yar yar’ ) but not when the right / wrong is crystal clear. second chance theory went out of the window.
i accepted guy reason – desire.
but its beyond my understanding.
perhaps guy is right, when i find myself in the same situation, i might do likewise. trash all integrity / moral and simply follow my heart. yet, i know, i cant. i wont. like guy said, that will be the first step. if you can stamp your own approval, what’s next? the de-value oneself process will continue and you will stoop at nothing for that moment of desire.
next.
he comment – im only lookin for faithfulness / trust / security in a man. what abt other stuff? like responsible? caring? the list goes on..
guy, the rest of the stuff are impt to me but those always come first.
last.
guy told me smt which i agreed – smts he wondered why think so much? do like everyone else, hv fun & njoy life. but that will snowball problems to later part of life.
*pause.
of coz, by the time you read this. this topic no longer bothers me.
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alritey, let’s have a break.
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whatsup?!
why do i feel like a mini-version of guy?! the need to learn & understand.. so that i wont commit the same mistakes.
granted. i’m not as righteous as he is. i’m not as stubborn as he is (haha !) but i do like his way of life.
‘i’m very human. thats all i am. all i want to be. a good human’
i know, some might find us kinda bo-liao !
no, i dont see it that way. for, answers made me feel better.
no meaning entry. just unloading tots online.
– happy G.
400th post !
alrite.
the things you dunno abt me.
number #1 – no gift-wrapping.
why bother?
the recipient gotta waste time tearing apart the wrapping papers or waste time guessing (the gift)
can i be noble & say i’m tryin to save the trees?
of coz, i am plain lazy. 😉
jen gave up hopin i will wrap her gifts. haha !
number #2 – no umbrella.
chances are you wont find a umbrella with me.
unless its super heavy rain & i am being force to use the umbrella.
but den, i throw away the umbrella after use.
find it a chore to carry it around.
i choose the easy way out – dump it.
*tsk tsk
i hear your tsk-tsk-tsk.
btw – jen sama sama as me. she will throw away the umbrella too !
– G
awesome !
pumpkin acted on jen’s hint. fulfilled my always-wanted or.. jen gotta take action. when it comes to my always wanted, she’s not one who wait, she’s one who take action.
🙂
sentosa is super packed. even the mrt rides required crowd control.
met some cockroaches along d way. duh ! some pple just have to push their way through. groove goes ‘r-e-l-a-x lah’
i’m one who usually allow the aunties / uncles onto the train, before strollin in and parkin myself at d door. the theory being – you wont die from standing.
anyway.
4D Magix (Pirates) + Cineblast (Extreme Log Ride)
– $30
the maddening que for 4D
i think we were in the que for at least 60-80mins.
pple. it sucks to be in a que and you are short. felt like everyone towering over you and the air below is seriously limited.
kept myself occupied by playin 10qns with pumpkin.
came out of the 4D and we both goes.. erm. it was entertainin for the first 10mins, den, it got bored.
next que – cineblast.
i got grumpy den. haha ! no photos. it was rainin and i was bitten by mosquito. lotsa chit chat. observing everyone else grumpy face. haha
the log ride was okie. not as extreme as i tot. sorry, but its not worth the hour-long que.
well. super tiring day.
still feel like crap today but yeap. happy to fulfill my always-wanted.
thank you pumpkin for your patience !
(and dinner / coffee / sending me home )
– groove
wahahah
i be thinking abt it.
men who behave notti / rude / jerks are known as cockroach.
what abt woman?
– witch !
jen & i msging each other at the nail salon. yeap, yeap. funny i noe. well, we cant talk meh. she sittin away from me. so.. sms lor.
anyway, the term ‘witch’ pop into my head.
i could hear jen laughter when she received my sms.
‘.. exactly ! forget it, save monies. i buy u ah lian bee hoon ! yes, the lady super hard sell. she like d nail witch. hmm, man are cockroach, woman shall be named witch’
the witch suppose to be doin my nails instead of pestering pple to sign package. i wait until abit fed-up and decided not to do my nails.
they might be pretty, they might look like angels, they might be walkin among us.
idiot guide to recognise witch:
woman who dont do your nails, rude woman, gold digger, woman who steal pple’s husband.. are all classify as witch.
may good luck be with you if you are dating a witch. oh. *slap my forehead well, unless you are cockroach.. perfect match!
so, ladies & gentleman, beware of witches. (and cockroach)
– groove
yeap ! christmas stayover !
okie, okie. i promise this is d last entry on christmas.
she stayed over at my place.
brought her to eat 24hrs bah chor mee, 24hrs ntuc shopping, ate salmon for supper, slp at 4am, shoppin at JP.
nice of jie to volunteer to slp on the floor (sleepin bag) lettin jen have her bed. jie gotta wake up early on christmas day.. church camp.
hehe ! she decided to stay for another night. christmas day.
i went to bed at 1am. leavin her to watch tv by herself.
so les.
tell me abt it.
we went to collect her earring from royal dragon and the auntie asked us ‘you girls are sister? friends?’
‘auntie you guess’ – challenge jen.
auntie looked at me & goes ‘she musta your ah-yi’
barrels of laugh.
i swear everyone in the shop looked at us.
no offence taken. i loved our sense of humor.
no ! i’m her bff !
auntie tot that i’m her aunt, those young ah-yi.
god. do i look that old? sob ! 😉 🙂
auntie gave me instructions to ‘always make her happy’
i will. auntie. i will.
– groove
waiting for jen this morning.
saw this little bookmark at the sofa.
what you can do
things you can do to reduce your
worries
most worries never come to pass and those things worth worrying about usually hit you by surprise.
1. only worry about the things you can control, not the things you cant, like the weather or price of petrol.
2. worry with a writing instrument. write your worries down on paper, and solutions will appear.
3. take comfort in the fact that most worries never come to pass and use it to force needless worries out of your mind.
4. share your worries with a close friend. explain everything in detail.
5. learn more about what it is that is worrying you. read a book. ask an expert. talk to a friend who’s been through it.
pls, remind me of this entry.
– worried wart groove
christmas present from me to pumpkin.
‘ it take a genius to read this message – MERRY CHRISTMAS ‘
the parts.
(message in a bottle)
yes. i mentioned. i am miss lamey !
he loved the present, well, of coz ! 😉
– ms lamey groove 🙂
the girl who dislike christmas .. yet i attend jie’s church service almost every christmas (skip once!)
strange. i noe. =)
its nice seein her frds, i hear abt her friends. nice to put a face to those pple she talked abt. her frds are delighted to see me, being twins – we talk, walk, laugh, behave in exactly the same manner. if you see me swing to the music, chances are you see her swingin to the same tune.
her boss tease her for havin a sis who prettier den her. jie’s cell group boys cheer & agreed ! earning heartfelt laughter from the twins. jie’s boss went over & whisper smt equally nice to jie. of coz, jie is totally cool abt it. our chara eh.
i hug jie ! and we gave the boys the champ-smile. haha ! did i make you go ‘awwwww’
*wink
njoy the meaningful service, , i like the spread a little love, i like the little msg delivered by pastor johnny, the good food, the friendly pple.
nice. i’ll be back next year.
maybe i shld stop declared myself as the girl who dislike christmas.
hello, i even have a fav xmas tune – hark the herald angels sing.
updates:
jie text me this the following morning.
‘faith makes all things possible,
hope makes all things work,
love makes all things beautiful,
may you have all the 3 for this christmas’
– groove.
simple. powerful words.
went supermarketing with jen & asked her ‘can i buy this thing? its my always-wanted’ she got curious. what? excitedly lead her to the food aisle.
smoked salmon from supermarket.
she decided to complete the smoked salmon experience- crackers / cheese
yum. its good.
hehe !
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always-wanted.
i seems to have lotsa always wanted. she tries very hard to fulfill each & every always-wanted.. as long as its within her ability.
so far, yeap. my always-wanted are reasonable request.
ask me. what’s next on my list.
here:
www.sentosa.com.sg/explore_sentosa/attractions/sentosa_4dmagix.html
i went there once. on my bdae. right outside the theater but didnt went in. ask me and i might tell you the reason. yeap, i walked away from my always-wanted disappointment written all over my face..
..maybe that’s why i tried so hard to fulfill all my always-wanted since.
afterall, you only live once.
what’s your always wanted? get it done.
=)
– G