‘what is love?’
he asked. or was it a sentence?
i cant tell the difference.
*pause
realised, i dunno what is love either.
groove’s reply:
‘love is suppose to make u happy’
and the next tot – okie, i’m gotta blog abt this. haha !
looking through some of the little notes i’ve accumulated over the years, i found this:
– but love wasnt abt sacrifice, and it wasnt abt fallin short of someone’s expectations. by definition, love made you better den good enough; it defined perfection to include your traits, instead of excluding them.
– its not doing whatever the person you care for expects of you. its doing what they dont expect. its going above and beyond what you’ve been asked
– extracted from my books.
its easy for me to list out the kind of love between parent – kids, friends, but its tough for me to define the love between couples.
its effortless to define what love is when you are in a r/s but try doing it when you are single. its a different ball game altogether.
in my words?
– love comes in a package.
you experience sweetness, bitterness, anger, jealously, happiness, nervous, silly-ness, confusion, sadness, etc all at the same time.
– love comes in unexpected package.
i find love in places or in pple i didn’t expect.
– love is love.
i suppose you know it when a person have the ability to stop you in your track, to make you grin from ear to ear, when a person bothers you enough to keep you from sleeping, when the world suddenly seems brighter or darker, when you feel complete or incomplete..
as much as i njoy singlehood, i wanted a r/s too.
i reached a stage of my life where i have everything – good health, family, friends, i love my work, school, comfort-ability with myself, with being single.
life is full.
so, maybe i wanna explore the possibility of having a r/s.
like i mentioned – i am okie by myself, i am okie if there isnt anyone.
maybe, i wanna push my ‘life is full’ to ‘life is superb’
but, ultimately, we all want that – a relationship.
this need to connect with another human is simply in-build in us.
everyone wanna experience love and be loved.
and yes, this is what i am seeking for.
next interesting non-related tots:
‘what if it turns out that a life isnt defined by who you belong to or where you came from, by what you wished for or whom you’ve lost, but instead by the moments you spend getting from each of these places to the next?’
that is the reason why i am positive, why i try to have a happy life, why i refused to be beaten down by life, why even when i am sad, i refuse to let the sadness linger, why i appreciate the little things in life, why i always managed to pick myself up, why happiness matters alot to me.
moments mattered, and not occasions.
*knock knock
silly me. carried away by my tots. are you still there? 🙂
thank you for reading my bullshit, again.
groove – i dont live for love, i live for happiness.
no ! i’m not suicidal.
the food.
the aftermath. by kor / jie / jen 
silly me. i forgot all abt the mushrooms !